11 Something to Midnite Rant!

It's amazing how far and wide the spectrum is for OC, and how people can be so ignorant and in disbelief still after all this time... it's weird how you can do something (that u think is completely original) in the privacy of ure own home, and then find out someone does the exact same thing...it makes me feel connected or apart of something in a way: Firstly,for the people (like me) who preform rituals and compulsions and what not for the sake of others' safety/health/life/happiness... regardless if they're in ure family or not! .That's crazy/insane/idk if there is a word for it. u almost feel like a superhero in a way with ure mind or simple yet complex actions that u use to keep planes in the air or people's backs from breaking.....wether it's blinking,counting,avoiding cracks,saying the time in a different way,or doinig rituals before i'm off to bed,or just a simpler version of that exact ritual throughout the daytime! rarely ever do i do anything for myself in terms of The OC lol .The OC. it's usually for my family,friends,ect. but i do have my own obsessions/compulsions about death or germs that can lead to death or any word closely related to that word..... and a whole lot of others.....lol i'm ranting about my thoughts only because i can't sleep..... oh yeah and i love odd numbers ~ash ..NITE...